Friday, June 26, 2009

The Fall Of Two Stars

Two well-known icons passed away today. Probably the most shocking was Michael Jackson. He succumbed to a heart attack. The other was Farrah Fawcett. I think she was the one who I identified with most. I was not a big fan of Michael, but, while I was not a Farrah follower either I really identified with her this year since we were both battling cancer. I was most moved by her courage and faith. Many thought went through my mind as I watched the Dateline special tonight remembering her life. One is wondering what it was like to die. Maybe this is a bit morbid but when you face cancer it becomes and every day reality that refuses to leave. A little over a year ago I "watched" an aunt die from stomach cancer and you wonder if you could face it with such courage if you were that sick. I mean I know where I am going but you worry about those you leave behind and you wonder what the whole process is like. This year has been hard to face with my own but, after I was diagnosed, it was one friend after another and that alone is enough to knock the wind from your sails. I know I have been struggling with an emotional feeling that I can't pin point and I don't know if it's fear of recurring or if it's survivor guilt or just a hormonal imbalance. There has been a lot of emotional triggers lately.
For me the saddest part of Farrah's whole story was her son....... he has to miss probably the most important, pivotal moment of his life because of choices he made. We all probably know someone who is making unwise choices and it just saddens me to know that these choices could have devastating consequences for those people. All you can do is pray for them and stand behind them to help pick them up if they fall.
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I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
.
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
.
So I pray
Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain
.
I am yours regardless of
the clouds that may loom above
because you are much greater than my pain
you who made a way for me
suffering your destiny so tell me
whats a little rain
So I pray
Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain
Holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy, holy
is the lord God almighty
is the lord God almighty
Holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy, holy
is the lord God almighty
is the lord God almighty

2 comments:

marykay said...

Hi Dear, I wish we lived closer, I'd take you out for lunch and coffee. I don't blame you for feelig sad. Anyone would feel the same way. I will pray for you and your healing of mind and body.

I felt sad with Farrah passing away too. Cancer is terrible. I watched my Mom suffer thru metastatic breast cancer and so know how it can shatter a persons soul. And cancer doesnt care if you are famous or not famous, male or female, rich or poor, old or young. I always pray for a cure. Its too bad Farrah's son was in jail. sometimes poor choices a person makes, although he may regret it, takes forever to go back to where you were. I hope her son can heal thru all the sadness he must feel for not being with his mother. Also, MJ. That was a surprise. Its too bad because he is so young. Also today, Billy Mays, he sells Oxyclean and other stuff on TV, he died at age 50. I guess something hit him on the head as their plane landed. He must have developed a hematoma after being struck on the head and then with the blood or intercranial pressure, it killed him. My kids and I were sad of that too. We liked his infomercials and his face looks like such a nice man. =( So its been sad and so I think all this saddness is making you feel worse. I love the words to that poem you post...it makes me cry...when my mom died, I couldnt understand it...why someome so young and so good had to die...easily we can get angry and although it still makes me sad and I miss her, the only way I got thru is by being closer to God. I could never make it through without God's help.

marykay said...

Cancer is so limited that:

It cannot cripple love
It cannot shatter hope
It cannot corrode faith
It cannot destroy peace
It cannot kill friendship
It cannot suppress memories
It cannot silence courage
It cannot invade the soul
It cannot steal eternal life
It cannot conquer the spirit