Tonight was hard but could have been harder. First I had to let the dog at the kennel this morning. I felt bad for doing that to him but I figured at least he would get the attention he needs and a big yard to run in. I didn't want to have to pin that extra responsibility on my family. I just felt like a traitor walking out the door with him watching me and not understanding why we left him there.
Then this evening I had to let my kids at my mom's house. I felt bad leaving them but it's a relief knowing they will be cared for by someone they know well. I did not want to leave them with a different person every day. I went through that when I was a kid and my father was in the hospital from a bad accident that he still does not feel comfortable talking about and I remember how lonely, insecure and isolated I felt. I did not want that for my kids. I felt bad leaving them but I know they will be well cared for. I hope someday they understand how hard it was for me to leave them and that I am doing it so I can be around for them for many many more years.
I am taking my brother's computer back in. He gave me a crash course on it so I will try it again and see if I can get into the system. If I can I will be updating here but, if not, then i guess ya won't see me till Saturday or Sunday.
First though my oncologist asked me to come into his office before we head o the hospital. I still don't think I understand why but it doesn't sound like it will last really long. It just means extra traveling in possibly bad weather so please keep us in your prayers!